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2012-01-13T08:32:00.001-08:00

‎"Thousands of candles can be lighted from a single candle, and the life of the candle will not be shortened. Happiness never decreases by being shared."
Buddha

Dear Honey Cruller

2011-12-20T08:56:00.000-08:00

I never got to draw u, we were suppose to park !!! I totally forgot to draw you !!! AAAHHHHHHHHH, and to make it worse, I cnt even tell u cuz we're not talking !! FUCK, & what about all the future Zaatar sandwiches that I'm goin to have to eat alone :( I'm still confused, but I guess you'll be having zaatar with ur "new friends" - I, on the other hand, would never.

...

2011-11-16T22:37:00.000-08:00

I pray, Oh Lord please, take my life today,
maybe that'll make the pain go away,
y you be acting like a stranger to me?
my heart stopped beating as I whispered stay...

Its so hard

2011-11-11T06:12:00.001-08:00

To remember how we were,
To know ur love has changed,
To know u've given up,
I only cause u rage.

Trying to Remember why,
We even took this step,
Knowing all along,
We'd end up with regret.

U used to do anything,
To put a smile on my face,
My hearts forever broken,
To see you walk away.

Ur always on my mind,
U used to be my man,
We were so inlove,
I just don't understand.

I try to keep a distance,
U said u need some space,
Slowly my hearts breaking,
This fate I can't erase.

What happened to I love u,
Or i'd never let u go,
I'm suppose to be ur woman,
But u got me feeling like a hoe.

This total lack of interest,
In anything bout me,
Gets me really thinking,
I'm lacking what you need.

I tried to make you happy,
In every way I could,
Ur carelessness defeats me,
I remain misunderstood.

Hopeless

2011-10-11T11:44:00.000-07:00

She keeps waiting for him. What she doesn't realize, is that he's ever coming back, he can't. He... He never existed.

Palestine - quick rant

2011-09-05T21:10:00.000-07:00

I will just repeat something I wrote within a paragraph to a friend, while we were discussing the current situation/status of our dear Palestine : "We come from the land of God, no matter what religion you are, n for our country to NOT be recognized is prolly one of the dumbest and worst things the WORLD has ever done." - I liked what I said. I felt like sharing this, without getting into too much detail. There's so much the world has emphasized on, so much. Does there always have to be a hidden agenda? Is media really designed just to fool us, or distract us from reality??? Why did we pay so much attention to the "holocaust" of the Jews, yet most ppl are unaware of the Armenian holocaust, what happened in Rwanda, etc... 9/11 went quiet pretty quick don't u think? when a lot of questions began to arise, and everyone found out about "hearing bombs go off" or "the gov't was warned" and all that - they chose to no longer answer the questions of not only the public, but even from reporters who experienced this FIRST HAND. hidden agenda? in my opinion, yes it was. I know many architectural engineers n have done my research and they all agree the building cant possibly fall as such. Not only that, but the world knew this was done in order to enter the middle-east and steal the oil. Middle-east is far from perfect, it has the biggest problems in the world, but does that mean u must point them out to the world as terrorists and form a greater hate towards Arabs to the point of racism, just in order to benefit yourself? That is not the message i want to teach my kids in the future, neither is it a proper example for the world today. We have been through it all, history repeated itself, can we fucking learn? can we change? can we move on to bigger and better things? is it even possible? I am christian. Arabs became the new blacks. I have gotten too much hate since 911 and again i'm a christian. It is wrong what is being done to our people.

Does anyone here love their enemies?

2011-08-25T12:21:00.001-07:00

A true n good person is content within themselves, they pray for those who feel the need to hate on others. Always remember spreading love can help someone somewhere when u least expect it, but spreading hate is self damaging just as much as it is hurtful to all around u. To live in a more productive world to me is spreading love and seeing how much better any and everyone can be given the right motivation.

Tales of Tech Love - Sony Ericsson ARC review

2011-08-17T22:45:00.000-07:00

I don't like Blackberries, not only is it because everyone has one but its just too plain n normal for me n BBM is not that fascinating, I could always download liveprofile and go crazy with that but seriously who rly wants someone knowing when u read their msg??? i mean ya u can block ppl from seeing ur actions but with that option available, how many would still allow ppl to c it whether or not theyve read ur msg n how quickly they reply? Apparently almost everyone !! I dont want u to know, I do ignore. Im not one to carry an ipod or psp around either, my purse is heavy enough. iphones? not so much. I prefer Android cuz it has way more features all free apps its just better in my opinion, i recently got the ARC as a gift for my bday n it' been wonderful. My free music download app is crazy, the speed is so fast i can build a playlist in 5 mins of all the songs i want, they can fully download instantly i dont ever use limewire or anythign that may catch a virus online anymore. i can download movies, i can listen to music, i can skype internationaally like its just perfect. my last sony x10 used to freeze alot during txt but this one is quick no problems, my tethering isnt workign but im guessing its a defect im gona go check it out wit rogers soon maybe theyll switch it for me otherwise its been such a great phone so quick the camera is amazing its HD n its VERY good quality. I been shooting my new videos all thru my phone for my youtube channel. Battery is long lasting so far as wellll..... Anyways, its great love the phone no problems with it so far...

Tale of Tech Woe

2011-08-17T22:31:00.000-07:00

Finally had my own laptop - no longer needed to worry about getting locked out of the pc - could hide my own shit with a password - got HP cuz it was suppose to be one of the best - a yr in n my motherboard is fried - computer totally just crashed - thank God i could recover my files and folders from the hard drive - there goes an extra 20$ for the hard drive reader usb thingy - could have been worse, coulda lost it all - need a new laptop now !!! hate borrowing from others, gota make sure everything is deleted n cleaned up back to normal and all ur info is cleared when u give it back, its a pain in the arrrrrrrs.

Task : Take a photo in front of any FUTURE SHOP location - COMPLETE!

2011-08-11T16:17:00.001-07:00

Self-Made Quote

2011-07-17T16:05:00.001-07:00

ALWAYS Believe in what you're passionate about. You may not be the best at it, but if you work hard you can only get better n better. The key to success is passion & commitment. ♥ - ICA

love..

2011-07-17T10:35:00.000-07:00

True love = when you WANT to place someone's needs ahead of ur own. You are automatically so concerned about their wellbeing, so taken by everything about them, ur focus is on them, u will let urself down just to c them happy. It's easy to figure out if someone feels the same way or not. Love shouldn't hurt when it is real. u shouldnt need to demand attention, feel unappreciated or unwanted, feel the need to ask for love. It may be the hardest thing u ever do, but when u kno it to be true and its obvious they dont feel the same way, u gotta walk away. Ull never heal from a broken heart, just get distracted or forgetfull. My biggest fear is bumping into ur true love years later n knowing their heart and soul, and knowing u cant b w them n they r fine without u... "someone like u" will forever represent the sadness in my heart.

. . . been thinkin bout . . .

2011-06-15T13:49:00.001-07:00

Where it was,
How she looked,
How she did,
What got u hooked

What made u think,
I had no right to know,
Not only was I fooled,
But tricked to risk it all.

Y would u make me feel so good,
If none of it was real,
Y would I believe in ur love,
When loving, u wont deal.

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A lesson

2011-05-07T07:45:00.001-07:00

A wise man once said to me: "it's not that you have a weak heart, it's that you have a big, pure, loving, STRONG heart & you ACTUALLY CARE. At the end of the day if you know you're A good person & you gave it your all then you shouldn't have any regrets."

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Farewell my Dearest

2011-04-27T14:04:00.001-07:00

I will love u up until my last breath, but the pain of ur memory will forever leave me heartbroken.

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The Most Touching Words...

2011-04-26T07:27:00.000-07:00

He said :

"My love for you,
I can't describe.
From my heart,
Sorry for the lies,
Sorry for the hurt,
& sorry for the pain.
My heart cries,
Like the sky rains."

All I can say is,
I wish we didn't have to feel this way.
I wish I still had a heart to feel it cry,
'cause emptiness took over at that last goodbye.
You showed me I could love again,
But now I'm sure it's gone forever.
The worst imagineable feelings of all,
is knowing you will no longer be mine.

Love?

2011-04-24T09:35:00.001-07:00

If you dont, someone else will.
U hurt me, u fix it.
Leaving a broken heart to heal on its own wont make it run back to the one who hurt it once its healed, more like itll get over you n stay away.
U need to heal it, to save it, to maake sure it stays yours.
Letting it go is giving up.
It was urs to take care of, abandoning it, breaks it, leaves it empty - because of u.
This heart has disappeared, my soul lost in a dream.
What the future holds, thats bcuz of u.
Say hello to a different girl, say hello to the one who will never look at u the same, miss heartless is back, n this time shes here to stay. Goodbye love, ill always hate u.

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The Pain Never Ends.

2011-04-24T09:34:00.000-07:00

How can I trust you,
when all you do is lie?
Why should I love you,
when all you do is make me cry?

You told me you loved me,
but you left me there to die.

My heart goes out to you...

2011-03-11T04:39:00.000-08:00

Im so moved by this... EVERYONE WATCH THIS DOCUMENTARY, we seriously need to appreciate where & how we live, we need to treat eachother with love & appreciate the people in our lives... This society makes your life revolve around work, no one stops to enjoy what passes them by... show love... carpe diem ppl... seize the day.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y9HIXZmmSus&feature=player_embedded

"Heal the world, make it a better place, for u & for me & the entire human race, there are ppl dying, if u care enuf for the living, make a better place for u & for me" -Michael Jackson

"I'm starting with the man in the mirror, i'm asking him to change his ways, no message could have been any clearer, if u wana make the world a better place, take a look ar urself & then make that change..." -Michael Jackson

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2011-02-01T07:25:00.000-08:00

You thought you'd be my hero,
& save my broken heart,
You thought it was so simple,
like you knew it from the start.

Id let you feel my soul,
& see me inside out,
Id fall for broken words,
& eventually just peace out.

Little did you know,
this broken heart grew wings,
& flew around your soul,
but you wouldn't give in.

After ALL - confirm my doubt,
what sounded like a dream,
you got your happy ending,
inside my heart I scream.

Take my wings,
close my eyes,
& if i die,
that's no suprise.

<3

2011-01-13T11:51:00.001-08:00

Honestly, a good heart is all everyone needs. The people who surround you should be able to ask for your help just as you should never think twice about asking for their assistance. No, i didnt mean everyone you know, eventhough world peace would obviously be ideal. Realistically, this is about family, and the friends who pretty much are. One could argue many things, but the most important argument, in my opinion, is to not treat someone better than they treat you. They really dont deserve it. Yes ofcourse you could have the kindest heart and would want to help others for reasons such as pure goodness, something most people just cant seem to grasp the concept of, but that doesnt mean you do things which lead to: people walking all over you, people not being there when you need them and most of all wasting your precious time. Time is forever passing, be productive for your own benefit, do all you can to satisfy your own wants and needs before even thinking of going above and beyond for another person.

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untitled

2010-12-30T22:06:00.001-08:00

I stand by you
Would u stand by me?
When day turns to night
Is it u holding me?
Life can offer many mistakes,
But only u can fit in place.
Why is it u whos on my mind,
I hate that i love u so much , im blind.
Forgive my past n what i hide,
I need ur love to, in my heArt, reside.

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killer

2010-11-13T12:08:00.001-08:00

1i killed u cuz I had to. 2 i killed u cuz I had no choice, 3 I killed u by mistake, but 4 I killed me on purpose. I am the killler, not my soul, for it was long gone before it got to three

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:(

2010-11-13T12:03:00.001-08:00

What do u do when u have so much to say, but nothing comes out? When there's no one to turn to, no one who understands.... what do u do when u have a secret no one knows, or tries to help... its killing me

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One of Many Perspectives of Love

2010-11-13T06:32:00.000-08:00

You may not be her first, her last, or her only. she loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She's not perfect - you aren't either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don't hurt her, don't change her, don't analyze and don't expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she's not there. " - Bob Marley

I fucking hate you

2010-11-06T02:19:00.001-07:00

Yes, you. For every fucking reason that could exist, I hate you.

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call it spca, humane society, or wtv u want; I call it discrimination! !

2010-11-05T08:42:00.001-07:00

This honestly breaks my heart.... So, apparently all black cats have to be hidden. Their cages r covered w sheets, not able to see the outside world, but most importantly, not able to be seen by the adopters... so sad it is. I mean why.do they have to discriminate against black cats, in my opinion I find them to.be the cutest!! like seriously what the hell is wrong people, what is this really all about?! superstition my ass!! what if I came up w an idea that black ppl bring bad luck, r we gonna hide them?? like we should b living in the new world order right? so everything should be equal n.allowed, isn't that the key to our very own downfall? not to get too sidetracked, but what about those crazy, sick, dangerous cats... i saw many of them, they were not discriminated against!! I almost think animals running free then getting runover would be far more a satisfying life than being stuck in a cage, covered, trapped and neglected by any adopter. Nothing spells warm n welcome more than that. They must feel extremely wanted... NOT. especially the older cats, now that's a sad sad sad thing to see, let them go free. You know, maybe animal shelters should be located in old folks home, they'd all be happy for the most part. Picture happy grandma w her 13 cats, n grandpa w his dogs. Point is, if that were the case, old animals will be loved. Old ppl who feel trapped n hidden from the outside world will feel this fury love as well. I'm not saying all places must be the same, maybe give them wrinklies a chance to chose between a regular old folks home, and ones that are animal friendly n provide options.... im sure many old folks would love the company... just a suggestion, until next time... any thoughts on the matter??

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Day 2

2010-10-31T06:25:00.001-07:00

Was i dreaming?

. . . . . . .

I'm living a nightmare.

Day 1

2010-10-30T22:44:00.000-07:00

This is the hardest of them all,

but it must be done.

Everything has fallen apart,

Everything and everyone.

Loneliness, sticks around,

Nothing can describe this.

Hatred, betrayal, Death,

extracted from that very first kiss.

The one who came to pave the way,

That falls much deeper, day by day,

I guess your wish did come true,

Its all over now, this is for you.

Only You

2010-10-24T13:41:00.001-07:00

Only you can heal me,

but it's only you who hurts me,

i might as well keep the bruise,

and let you desert me.

STOP

2010-10-24T13:27:00.000-07:00

All you end up being is another picture folder to reminisce on,

another regret,

another epiphany of tiime wasted where I could have been climbing instead of falling,

another person to forget,

memories to erase,

another solid fact that you're all the same,

much can be said but to be very precise,

you are not worthy of not only time and effort,

but you don't deserve to be loved.